My biggest fear? To be alone

No one wants to be alone, and no job is isolating from a pop star.

Just ask Lady Gaga.

Her ascent to fame in 2009-10 was unlike everything we saw before. One of the first pop stars to use the power of the internet seemed to exist in a permanent attack by TMZ photographs and gossip.

Their appetite was loud. She wore through so much look and sounds in the distance of three years that one critic wrote that “the whole career of Madonne was accelerated.”

And as her glory grew, the titles became more smooth. She set up a Satanic ritual at the London hotel … She was secretly hermaphrodita … she planned to see her own “for fashion”.

When she attended the 2010 MTV awards. In a dress made entirely of meat, no one seemed to be a joke: Gaga introduced herself as a table and tabloid food, there should be consumed there.

On stage was the subject of worship for her fans, small monsters. But anyone who is not a megalomaniac knows that this kind of adulation is a distant illusion.

“I’m alone, Brandon. Every night,” Gaga told her stylist in the 2017 documentary, Five Foot Two.

“I’m going from everyone who touches me all day and talk all day until complete silence.”

Now 38, and happily engaged with technological entrepreneur Michael Polansky, Gaga admits that loneliness has scared her that year.

“I think my biggest fear was alone – doing life myself,” BBC says.

“And I think the biggest gift was to meet my partner, Michael, and he was with him.”

The couple has been together since 2020, and their engagement has discovered at the Venice Film Festival last September – where Gaga first wore a million dollars in public.

Personally, it is blinding, with huge diamonds from an oval cut placed on a 18-carat white and pink diamond band.

But on the other hand, Gaga has a smaller, underrated ring, with a few grass blades placed in a resin. It turns out to be this is really special.

“Michael actually suggested to me with this grass,” she reveals.

“We were in the back yard a long time ago, and he asked me,” If I ever suggested you, like, how to do it? “

“And I just said,” Just take a knife of grass from the back yard and wrap it around your finger and that will make me so happy. “

It was a deeply romantic gesture that came with sadness. Gaga -The courtyard in Malibu has previously played the host of her close friend Sonja Durham, shortly before she died of cancer in 2017.

“There was so much loss, but this happy thing happened to me,” the Polansian proposal recalls.

“To get engaged in 38 … I was thinking about what it needed to come up to this moment.”

These feelings eventually informed the song on her new album Mayhem.

Called (natural) blade of grass, finds a star singing about “A love kiss in the garden made of thorns“, And the promise of love in the time of darkness.

She calls it “thank you” to her partner. And fans could have a reason to thank him.

Mayhem denotes Gaga’s full butterfly to return to Pop, after a period in which she was preoccupied with her film career, and spin-off albums that were engaged in jazz and classic American songbook.

In an interview with Vogue last year, the singer revealed that the fiancé had pushed her in that direction.

“He was like,” Honey. I love you. You have to make pop music, ” she said.

“On a tour of Chromatica, I saw a fire in it,” Polansky added. “I wanted to help her keep it all the time and just start making the music that made her happy.”

With this approach, the album returns to the Sucker-Punch sound of gagan early hits like Poker Face, Just Dance and Born This Way.

On the latest single, Abracadabra, she even revises “”Roma-ma-ma“Gibberish of bad romance – although this time it leads to death while singing,”Mort-Ooh-Gaga‘

In the artwork of the album, her face reflects on a broken mirror. The videos take place against the earlier versions of yourself.

There is an irresistible feeling that artist Stefani Germanott is dealt with with the stage person she created.

Everything comes to the head on the track called Perfect Celebrity where she sings, “I became a infamous being” – A lyric that, like a meat dress before it, takes off humanity.

“It’s probably the most serious song about the glory I’ve ever written,” she says.

“I created this public person to truly become in every way – and holding the duality of it, knowing where I started and Lady Gaga ended, was really a challenge.

“Somehow it collapsed.”

How did she harmonize the public and private sides of her life?

“I think I actually realized that it was healthier not Have a line and integrate these two things into one whole human being, “she says.

“The healthiest thing for me was that I was a female artist and that life artistic life was my choice.

“I am a fan of songwriting. I am a fan of making music, exercise, choreography, stage production, costumes, lighting, putting on the show.

“It means being Lady Gaga. It’s an artist behind everything.”

In previous interviews, the musician spoke about how she split from Lady Gage. For a while, she believed that the character was responsible for all her success and did not contribute to anything.

Mayhem signifies the moment when he returns ownership of his music, not only from “Lady Gaga”, but also from other producers and writers in their orbit.

“When I was younger, people were trying to take a loan for my sound or my picture [but] All my references, all my imagination about what pop music could be, came from me.

“So, I really wanted to re -examine my earlier inspiration and career and possess it as my invention, once and for all.”

From the very beginning it was obvious that Gaga was excited about this new phase.

Last summer, after performing at the Olympic Games Ceremony, she went out to Paris Streets and played early demonstrations of his new music fans who gathered outside their hotel.

It was an incentive of the current decision, but it marked another effort to return the spontaneity of her early career.

“This is something I have done for almost 20 years, where I played my fans, my musical way before it came out,” she says.

“I used to, after my shows, invited fans in Backstage, and we would hang out and play their demonstrations and see what they think about music.

“I am sure you can imagine that after 20 years you do not expect people to still appear to hear your music and be excited to see you. So, I just wanted to share with them, because I was excited to be there.”

As an interviewer, this is a moment of full circle for me. Last time I interviewed Lady Gago 2009As the dance only hit the number one in the UK.

At the time, she was dizzy with excitement, she talked enthusiastically about her love for John Lennon, calling herself “a heroine addict” For English tea and promising to send me a mp3 blueberry kiss – an unpublished song, which is quite great, about the performance of a sexual act of smell from Blueberry.

Over the years, I have seen that her interviews have become guarded. She would wear amazing costumes or sunglasses with jet-black, intentionally putting an obstacle between her and journalists.

But the Gaga I meet in New York is the same one I talked to 16 years ago: comfortable with myself and full of enthusiasm.

She puts that ease on “growing up and life full of life.”

“Since I was there for my friends, I was there for my family, I met my amazing fiancé – all things did me the whole person, instead of the most important thing my stage persona.”

With the air of finality, she adds, “I wanted Mayhem to end. I wanted the chaos to stop.

“I stepped down from the icon. It ends with love.”